Update

Court is over.  I made an offer and he accepted.  We have joint custody,  with the kids permanent residence with me.  He now has unsupervised visits.

Court day surprised me.  He had people there that I've know for years to be character witnesses for him and witnesses as to how bad of a mother I am.  To say the least, I felt betrayed.

Now we have a schedule made until the end of the year - when the kiddies will be with him.  It's sorta nerve wracking, having the kids alone with him when they haven't been for a year.  

I have been fluctuating mood wise since court ended.  I nearly broke into tears when I signed the agreement.  I am glad things are settled, but sad it has to be this way to begin with.