Hate?

So much to do and so behind it in all...

My kiddies were away for two weeks - you'd think I had time to catch up on stuff and even get ahead on things. No. Such. Luck.

I am a procrastinator at best, and a time-waster no doubt.  I find anything to do except what I should be doing.

I'm not feeling very well today, mostly emotionally.  I have a paper to finish that is already late, and I have things to do this week that are a must.

Question: why do I keep putting things off??  I really hate that part of myself.

I also hate that I'm overweight, but I guess not enough to do something about it.

Is that what it needs to get to? Hating a certain part of me enough that I finally decide to change it?

I dunno.

Anyway, gotta get to this school work whether I feel like it or not.  The one thing I do hate enough to make sure it doesn't happen is failure.

Update: I discovered that I am putting this particular assignment off for so long because it's difficult... it's actually a hard assignment. Only God can help me now.